Beyond Expectations

In my dreams a girl,i used to see
The one with whom i want to be
Soft spoken,kindhearted,all grace and class
And beauty that no one can surpass

Back in those days i was going strong
and then one day you came along
caught the eye in the very first view
saw so many getting drawn to you

It took some time but when the ice broke
I really loved the way you spoke
A little fast still the words were clear
So very gentle but so easy to hear

Before i could realize my feelings grew
And as it would appear from your side too
To muster the courage some time was taken
For the first time the words to be spoken

She was the best i,thought so
the girl of my dreams too good to be true
but now,i have to admit though
the best i could imagine fell way short of you

In my dreams i still see a girl
the one with whom i want to be
the only difference is that the girl today
is standing right in front of me...

Stayed up all night just for you
And yet you refuse even a view
For once at least answer my pleas
Even with just a glimpse if it is...

The beginning....

In the beginning I stayed away

Thinking that you needed time

Aware that it could all end

With a gentle feather of mine

In the beginning I let you pass

The desire to go through I did resist

At times presented a guarded self

Forced only at your insist

Every passing moment I could feel

That I was coming closer to you

Now was my time to open up

And start behaving more freely with you

Though every moment I was aware

The need to mix caution with dare

A moment’s slip even just one

And the hard work may be undone

Had at times some nervy moments

At the receiving end of a few comments
But we did nicely for a long time go

Though at times a little slow

For most part now it was smooth sailing

With hardly ever any thoughts of failing

But the good times truly have their meaning

In the restraint shown in the beginning.

Who are you

Who,who are you
tell me,tell me what do you do
where,where do you go
lead me,lead me i will follow you

I have been lost somewhere
only you can take me there
tell me,tell me where to go
lead me,lead me i will follow you

Only do i see it now
missed it so long don't know how
now we will think of what to do
lead me,lead me i will follow you

BEST WISHES

And finally it happened
what we all were waiting for
as the man with a keen sense of timing
came out with a beautiful piece of rhyming

it had been coming for some time now
we only wondered when and how
and then on a very significant day
he acknowledged his awakening in the most beautiful way

but in this day of happiness and joy
lets for some time set the end aside
and visit those old journey days
for its been a roller coaster of a ride

for those who want to know
how it started when and where
let me say what records wont show
that the flame has always been there

the road that led had some turns
but all the suffering was not in vain
for when at last the destination reached
it was worth every bit of the pain

the lips weren't allowed to leak a line
when to those who could see eyes told the story
the words that came out were i m fine
but the faces did little to hide the worry

along the way it brought some tears
took away the smile that she so gracefully wears
when silent confession met staunch denial
it was certainly a time for trial

it seemed to be over when in front of my eyes
they appeared to say their last goodbyes
trying so desperately to drown their sorrow
in whatever little time they could borrow

but then its said that there is a god
his ways far greater than yours or mine
from the shadows of this big dark cloud
came out the bright morning sunshine

for them its time for a new beginning
to enjoy life in its full meaning
all this friend of theirs wants to say
that you ll alwys have my best wishes.

Absence Seizures

Is there a soul who will help me find
a way to control these thoughts in my mind
i need someone to suggest some measures
to get rid of these absence seizures.

Goodbye

you have been special and even though
last few months have not been the best
i will make you this promise before i go
with you my heart will always rest.

Back to you

i see you after so many years
beautiful you have always been
you tell me that you missed me long
with love in your eyes that i have always seen.

across my face you gently blow
the wind,it makes my heart sway
the madness stops,time feels slow
for a moment takes all the worries away

with the rising sun at me you smile
the redness spreading over your cheeks
the feeling that i have missed for a while
for months and years,not days or weeks

you whisper to me through the birds
spoken as if to someone dear
slowly you let go of the words
it seems only for me to hear

all these days that i have been gone
deprived of the freshness and the view
how special you are my beautiful dawn
truly realised after coming back to you.

When you woke me up

i was lying dead on my bed
when you knocked on my door
and woke me up once more
i was tired from work today
when you woke me up just like everyday

i opened up to see your face
i prayed to god please give me a mace
when asked you why you did this thing
you said you wanted to boil something
i tried to think whose face was it that i saw first today
and i remembered you woke me up just like everyday

then again another time
when i was lost in dreams of mine
came again the sound of wood
and behind the door you stood
wanted to know if your daily i took
with anger my whole body shook
i tried to think whose face was it that i saw first today
and i remembered you woke me up just like everyday

i ponder how you manage to
i really wonder everytime you do
and i try to think whose face was it that i saw first today
and i remember you woke me up just like everyday

walk on the roof

on the roof i often take a walk
sometimes in the moonlight,sometimes in the dark
being away from the daily grind
it really helps to clear my mind.

while roaming a definite pattern i follow
with tea in my hand or a swallow
look far away at the street lamp burning
and at the people from work returning.

think of the targets that have been achieved
of the words from my side well recieved
about the good work i have done
and of the hearts that i have won.

think of expectations not been met
of the low standards i have set
all the times i have been like dirt
and the people i have badly hurt.

think of the need for me to awaken
and of the actions that need to be taken
to try first, not afraid to go wrong
in the times of trouble try to be strong.

it is the time i choose to motivate
myself everyday to try an create
to have meaning in each comment
and add value to every moment.

i look up at the moonlight sky
and if it wants, to let my heart cry
later on so that i can bear
almost anything without a tear.

for me its a time to let it out
without having to talk or to shout
a little time alone helps me on other ocassions
to be in total control of my emotions.

introspection

i looked outside into the dark
and as i heard stray dogs bark
in my mind ran thoughts so deep
i was tired yet unable to sleep

was it cause i didnt want
or because i thought i can't
did i think the land was dry
or was i too scared just to try


sleepless in my bed as i lay
i ask myself whether i can say
on most occasions have done whats right
and never ran away from a fight

or am i that big pretender
before every battle who did surrender
stepping aside every crucial moment
only to later sit and lament

have i been lying to this day
to myself in every way
or is it just a passing thought
that this lonely night has brought

and as the morning dawns with the rise of the sun
and once again its time to run
i get with a hope that last night
helps me see things in a different light